loneliness

It’s been so long, and it’s already gone, for months I thought we’d never meet again, we did. we might not again. cause you lie, why aren’t you honest. my life’s paused ever since you came, I don’t know what to think of it, it hurts, to read all these conversations I forgot, from then to now, all the time vanished, as if you made a direct connection with the past. I miss you, Why are you so special, I hate you, why are you so much better, I… ‘m alone. since you’re gone they all came back, and I want them all to go away, cause it hurts everytime they leave, and I forget about them everytime they’re not around. call me mean for acting like that, I’m tired and sorry to see you don’t understand. And the more life happens the more I believe loneliness could be the way, cause my peace always ever broke once I’m with them. Better days are coming. This is my journal, welcome to the non-readers. The plants are going well, half of them are dead.

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